It's painful but I tell myself it'll pass, that it's okay. But is it really okay? Is it really okay to keep all these hurtful thoughts to yourself, so that when the time comes again, they'll resurface again and hurt you even more than you already have?

It's not okay. But society judges us on our looks, judges our words, judges our thoughts, more than our actions, and definitely more than we'd like.

My momma taught me when I was young that the world is a cruel place. And yes mom, it really is. It really is.. but my own thoughts kill me more than anything else, and anyone else could.

In about another 5 minutes, I'll immediately regret that I've typed this because it only shows how insecure I am about myself and how self-conscious I actually am but this is me. This is really me.