This holiday period has been a fruitful one for me, in many ways; mostly partying. Not clubbing, but just celebrating friends' birthdays, spending time with my beloved ones, Christmas and New Year's. Life is really good that way.
In the past year, I've met my loving boyfriend, Rifat, in the early months. We've been together for approx. 10 months++ now and it might not seem long, but both of us are planning to walk together for a long time. The future might be uncertain, and we've had countless fights mentioning about this, but I am certain for one that I would never want to lose him. Just being so close to breaking up made me realize how much I couldn't lose him, and how I would never ever find anyone else that could ever replace him. Yes, I might have my freedom back. But at what cost? The cost of never finding love ever again because my expectations after him are set so high; it is almost impossible to find anyone even close.
When I first saw him in the flesh after my dental appointment (back when I had braces) in January, I was so afraid it'd be awkward even though we talk like old friends on Facebook. I mean, he was really easy and nice to talk to. Still is. And then we had late lunch/early dinner at Itacho Sushi, where I recommended it to him online because I often went there to eat alone after dental... and surprisingly it wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. It was really nerve-wrecking, eating dinner with someone so hot sitting right in front of me. LOL. But it was okay because we talked a lot and really hit it off! After, we played pool and watched an M18 movie which I sneaked into because my birthday's in fucking November.. On the way to Cineleisure, he got me a rose which one of those students were selling, and the girl thought we were a couple. I still remember us trying to explain that we were just friends, haha! It was my first rose, and I felt really appreciative because no guy had ever been that sweet to me. =') And then he sent me home, despite his home being in Pasir Ris..... which was on the other side of the island. I really thought it'd be impossible between us, with him being so nice and all cuz I thought he treated all girls the same way as he did me. But I'm his first, and that really means something to him, and to me.
The past 10 months have been nothing short of joy, love and sometimes anger and sadness but we've managed to pull through. I love you bby, you are really one of a kind. The sweetest, kindest boy/man (almost 20 now) whom I've met in my entire 18 years. You make me a better person, all in all, learning to do things that I would have never done for any one else, such as cooking. LOL.
For Christmas, I invited my closest, closest friends of Secondary School to come over and catch-up, have some good food, and just well... relax. We did exchanging of gifts, some catching up, drinking, etc etc. I'm glad we're all still in touch after we've graduated from New Town for about 2 years or so, and these are the friends whom I'll always keep close to my heart. Forever and always. We've all been through thick and thin throughout the years, especially friends like Maggie and Felicia whom I've known for almost 6 years now. Even though we might all end up in different places in the future, I'm sure we will all have a chance to see each other again, like how it is right now with Adrienne being in the UK and Moe sailing around continents. =)
So.. some New Year Resolutions for now, even though it is a tad late.--
- Start revising for exams earlier.
- Finish my fucking to-do list that has been rotting on my phone since November '12.
- Diet/Exercise/Lose Weight. 45kg!!! I can do it!
- Eat healthier food.
- Stop shopping so much.
- Save $$$$ and work work work to earn $$. For shopping. Amongst other things. Lol.
- Raise my GPA........
- Clear my wardrobe so new clothes can come in ;)
- SPEND TIME AND LOVE MA FRIENDS, FAMILY AND BF MORE MORE MORE!!
On a side note, Oakham Market is having a sale now and some of their stuff are really nice! Setting my eyes on some stuff that are just $10 like the denim hooded poncho, TO$A bralet and Hufflepuff Collar Shirt. Still contemplating! But my boyfriend will keel me if I buy any more clothes so.... :(
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