Met fellow shopaholic, Annie, yesterday to shop around City Plaza! Kidding, or.. maybe not. She's from my church group! She's so cute and pretty right, he he ^^ We share the same shopping habits omg we just went to every shop and like, try, then buy, try then buy. But omg every thing was so pretty ystd! Saw so many pretty bralets and dresses and skirts every thing was super worth it for the price. Seriously! Buying it from blogshops would have cost us a lot more!!

Some pictures that me and Annie took together after our mad shopping:

This was before I left the house LOL.

So anyway, after shopping, we headed to church for Reconciliation. It was basically confession, and it was really nice. I mean, all these years I went to Confession because I had to. I had no choice. I would just blabber some bullshit and ask for forgiveness but this time was different. I actually said something that meant a lot to me, and I know that I can forgive but I know they can't. I don't know who's forgiveness was I asking for, because it's not that I didn't deserve it, but because I didn't do anything. I don't know what to do. It's something that when I look back, I really ask myself, why? Why did I make that wrong choice? It was something so small, yet it became something so huge. It was traumatizing and it will always be. Every time I talk about it, every time someone mentions about it (particularly my mom), there'll be this sore pain in my chest. The pain that you get whenever you feel like crying. So talking about it yesterday with Father Derrick was really painful, and when he was consoling me, it really hurt you know? It's not just physical pain anymore.

That's why I can't fathom why people can say that I played with him. Fuck you, seriously. I played with him? Gosh you're not the one who got into some big shit just because you got together with someone and you even accepted him again at the expense of some of your closest friends. Seriously? Fuck you k. Hypocrite. Probably because you have never got together with anyone, ever, that's why you're saying all this bullshit.

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